Feels good

Today, after a really long time, I cooked an entire meal - the usual fare of south Indian food - sambar, rasam and curries. It felt really good - have a sense of fulfilment , an inexplicable joy. When all of it got over, it just seemed overwhelming

What is it about me and cooking? There was a time when I found it really monotonous - a bore. That turned to me enjoying trying out new things, infact starting a blog to keep all the recipes in one place. It was a pleasure to update the sites with my accomplishments and trials Now it has been a little less than a year; have not really cooked a whole meal.

When I did it today; it just makes me glad. Maybe, I would find it a bore if I did it day, in day out

Growing up?!

Somewhere in this world! lyrics here

I have a dream! lyrics here

Boney M and Abba were bands I used to listen growing up (shows how old I am right? )
The two songs above were those which when younger I just liked the soft tune, the melody… Each turn in life when we listen to such songs, they probably mean something different.
Now listening to these songs…wonder when I will find that somewhere and whether the angels have left me and my dreams?!
I still love listening to these songs…but may be I should not think and just enjoy them for the beauty they possess!

Just mentioning one more song that is a favourite…title song to M*A*S*H ( a favourite TV series too!)

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How easy?!

Today,  I was egging a friend of mine to go on a diet & exercise regime!! Me!! A few days back, I was doing the egging to a friend preparing for an exam to study and keep with the schedule.

Realised just how easy it is to get another person going…just hard to get oneself doing just about the same things!! Atleast for me! I have just about given up a healthy schedule in life…given up on walking just half hour a day (so doable, but just not doing it!)

Been a few days since I signed up with scalejunkie. Hope that would keep pushed to get back on track. Have a long way to go where I want to be in life - physically, mentally and emotionally. When I think about that, the physical bit atleast seems doable, as it lies entirely in my hands. I need to stick with my diet and exercise plan and more importantly, I should give up on the “I want everything yesterday” attitude.

Just a side note - was watching TV the other day (nothing new in that right ) an interview of Bipasha Basu during fashion week who said that it took years for her to be toned…if it took years for her…then for a person like me!!??? Well, I might as well put in a lot of effort!!

Hope I get to where I want to be and have to be. Been lying low for way too long a time…in every aspect. I want to do this for my son and me!

Does it matter?

I have purchased a bike. Paid the money on a day when the star is “barani” and will be receiving the delivery on “ashtami”. Both days are supposedly inauspicious according to traditions. In accordance, nothing new is ventured upon on those days and a few other days (even some lunar months).
Now that I have done this now…how will it affect anyone? When my mother pointed these days out to me, I was telling her that today is yesterday in some part of the world and tomorrow in another….so, how does it matter??? Am I justifying myself that well…I have done it, maybe I should have checked up?!
Don’t really know…does anyone know what is in store? I certainly don’t and should say did not! Have been told to face life as it has been thrown to me; just accept it and move on. So, I should just take it as it comes with my new vehicle too, right?

Strangers? and help :)

Don’t know how often this happens to others…but to me, it is becoming pretty much a normal thing - Getting to know someone because of a mistake in the mail ID. I have made pretty good friends because someone pinged me due to mistaken identities. Then why this entry now?Today, I was offered help by someone I don’t know as he had received a mail from me meant for someone else…thanks to my mistyping the ID

When there are “friends” who actually kinda shy away from even offering help, it amazes me that a total stranger offers to help me! World needs more such people to bring a smile and make someone’s day. Thank you, stranger!

Letting go!

Laksh had written this entry sometime back. About letting go….

Well I am writing this on a different note though…I am now in that stage in life when I have to let go of a person. Infact, it is that person who is letting go of A and me. I am grappling with the idea of living life that way and starting life from scratch as it is. Now I am back at my parents place, back to being a daughter living by their rules. It is tough to let go of my life as I had known it.

Laksh says happiness is a state of mind and the attitude is what governs it. I hope I can get to that state. Trying hard. There are days when I am depressed and feel like life is not worth living. And there are those where I want to prove to myself more than anyone else that I can.

I have had people around me tell me…it is over, get over it. Just wish it were that easy! Feel like it might have been easier may be earlier…given the circumstances, I know it will be a while before I truly let go and get over it!

Once again, I have to thank all those who endure my mood swings and support me through this period. Top honours should go to my parents…how much ever I crib about them. They are here for me despite what society here would say to all this. I am unfair to them and take out my frustrations on them, but am sure glad that I atleast have them! I hope not to be a burden on them for too long.

God (if He exists!! ) help A and me through all this and my parents too.

Shall we call this bias?

Was watching CNN-IBN and this news item was featured…

http://ibnlive.com/news/jodhaa-akbar-gets-some-southern-spice/60674-8.html

It is about Jodhaa Akbar being dubbed in telugu and tamil to reach this audience. The report was about reactions and when you read the article, it sounds pretty unbiased. Though, when I watched the piece; I wanted to find out if they do such a report when they dub so many of those English movies in all Indian languages.

The anchor said something about how funny Akbar would look talking in those southern languages…not more funny than a character in Lord of the Rings talking in hindi or any other Indian language.

I personally don’t like dubbed versions of any movie…the original is always better. Would rather have subtitles than watch a dubbing. The reason for this entry though is somehow something struck as odd when even the anchor said it would be funny!! In the case of Jodhaa Akbar, the charm of urdu would be lost when dubbed…accepted and is a known fact! The director though is probably doing this in the hope of getting some money back after the movie bombed in the north due to controversies, bans or whatever!

This also just reminded me of another incident which was about dubbed programmes. Here in Chennai, (thankfully!! ) cartoons and kids programs are telecast in English (meaning Pogo and Disney Channels)…and seems they are in hindi in Delhi. So my nephew who was visiting was excited about watching Noddy…the title song comes in English crooning “Make way for Noddy” while my brother, sil and nephew were singing “Aagaya Noddy” !!! Found it absurd…the funny thing is my nephew walked away saying this is not Noddy!! Poor Enid Blyton There is a channel called “chutti TV” that telecasts everything in tamil…endured about a minute or so of Dora in tamil!!! (my son wanted to see Dora…even he lost interest when it was not in English/Spanish which is what he is used to!) Wonder why they can’t make exclusive kids cartoons in those languages instead of dubbing (and the voices are sometimes ridiculous!!)