Today, I was egging a friend of mine to go on a diet & exercise regime!! Me!! A few days back, I was doing the egging to a friend preparing for an exam to study and keep with the schedule.
Realised just how easy it is to get another person going…just hard to get oneself doing just about the same things!! Atleast for me! I have just about given up a healthy schedule in life…given up on walking just half hour a day (so doable, but just not doing it!)
Been a few days since I signed up with scalejunkie. Hope that would keep pushed to get back on track. Have a long way to go where I want to be in life – physically, mentally and emotionally. When I think about that, the physical bit atleast seems doable, as it lies entirely in my hands. I need to stick with my diet and exercise plan and more importantly, I should give up on the “I want everything yesterday” attitude.
Just a side note – was watching TV the other day (nothing new in that right ) an interview of Bipasha Basu during fashion week who said that it took years for her to be toned…if it took years for her…then for a person like me!!??? Well, I might as well put in a lot of effort!!
Hope I get to where I want to be and have to be. Been lying low for way too long a time…in every aspect. I want to do this for my son and me!
Was watching We, The People on NDTV. The topic of discussion – Are Indians obsessed with weight?
Interesting programme and really interesting views… I have written about my views on weight!
This though rekindled those thoughts. How one lady says she lost 25 kgs and was not any happier…though she would like to lose weight too – an equivocal attitude. Something that I struggle with myself so many times (I am kinda comfortable with how I look…though have been called fat by people which would make me feel bad and get back into the slump of feeling fat and remembering every person’s comments on how fat I am or what I must do about it etc..,)
I feel it is not just India obsessed with weight…it is everywhere.
I liked one member of the audience- a doctor’s remark saying Indian women have always been depicted as being voluptuous and suddenly they want to be stick thin! And Pooja Bhat’s remark saying she does not want “starvation chic”
Overall, it was said that people should think more about being fit not fat /thin. This just reminded me of one “friend’s” remark…. when I told that person that all my numbers (BP, cholesterol, sugar ) were ok and that my doctor said I was ok… her remark was your doc is being too kind and you should change him!!! What can you say to such people?!? And when you are low, these remarks hit you hard and push you even more to the wrong side!!
I try workout atleast 4 times a week. I generally avoid Wednesday at my gym. This week, decided I should not do so and went in. 50 minutes of kicking, punching, squatting, lunging, resistance training!! Next day my butt was sore! It hurt so much. A sane person might have rested….but telling myself that determination and perseverance helps, I went for working out. Another 50 minutes of gruelling work out. Icing to the cake, had to do some grocery after the work out (I know ! yuck!!still…) I park the car in the driveway and could not get out. With great difficult lugged my shopping and myself to the door. I just wanted to sit in my doorway not wanting to climb the steps to get into my home!! Today my hamstring muscles, I think, are on a strike. They don’t want me do anything! Thank God! Today is a rest day – no workout!
Now why do I do this to myself? I found out I was not alone in enduring this pain…all those who came to the work out (including the instructor) were sore! LOL! That set me thinking why any of us do this?
I started this because I wanted to lose weight. Get to the weight I was when I got married ( a Herculean task I might add) My family has been supportive and they do tell me that I should do it for myself and not to fit into those jeans! “Friends” remarking that I could lose a few pounds or that I look “chubby” would send me into those spiralling depression moments(?!?). Decided I must do something about it and embarked on this.
The work out has been great though. I should thank people who unknowingly have pushed me into this. It is a stress reliever !! Hope it helps finally in my pursuit.
Then again to the question…is it worth the pain? Is it worth pushing oneself? Why am I really doing this? For me? To look like those models who wear skinny jeans and look fabulous? For people around me??
I know the answer should be for me to be healthy, look and feel good. ..but who am I kidding? Again it boils down to being accepted and appreciated by those around us right? Am I alone in this thought?