Walking on landmines!

I guess I understand what that means now….I wish I could elaborate in detail; but just wanted to pen down what I am going through now.  Don’t really know what A and I have done to deserve this phase in our lives. I just want us to lead a peaceful life, me enjoying A’s growing years and giving him the best I can.

Wonder if I can, when there was a day when I could not even assure him and me of a proper roof above our heads!!! Keep thinking what I should have done differently…

Questions throng my mind with no answers anywhere!!! My fears of pulling A with me into the abyss haunts me every minute of the day!

This is my crib of the moment(?!)….hope it comes to a stop soon – one way or another.