A very good friend of mine had this as her status message “Fear of suffering is worse than suffering itself”.

How true!! And especially to me, right now!! Me and my worst case scenarios that I imagine. Felt the quote is very apt.

The more I interact with people, the more I realise that most of us have the same fear….of suffering. Does knowing this fact make any difference right now? Not really? Momentarily though, I feel enlightened! 🙂 Don’t know how much it is going to help me let go of this fear!


On the fence?

This entry stems from a recent conversation I had with a friend. I told her “I hope…” and she said, be positive and say it will happen because hope is only a 50% chance. My response was well, then I at least have that 50% chance; if left to me, I would give none.

The same evening, I happen to talk to another friend and somehow the conversation steered on to faith. I was telling him that I was being ambivalent off late. His response – you should decide one way or the other. Either have complete faith or be a total atheist.

I realised I was doing just that…sitting on the fence. When I want some hope to cling on to….thinking there should be some help somewhere, I believe in God. When things are horrible, depressing, just not going my way (don’t know if it is the right or wrong one! 😉 ); God vanishes. She (or He if u want it that way! ) is not there! I am not being fair! God has become a matter of convenience….was wondering if it was the same for all?!? Same with horoscopes. I had written I check it out now and then. Do I believe in astrology totally? Again on the fence! 😉

Just got me thinking on how many things I am on the fence about! 😀 One of the many stupid thoughts that came up in my jobless life right now!