PostSecret….

PostSecret is one of the blogs I have blog rolled. I like the blog because of the candidness,honesty, and sometimes sheer nuttiness of the confessions that sometimes I wonder if they are true. However…..the one mentioned below…

struck a chord. There are so many times I wish I were dead and to be honest have contemplated  (and attempted!) suicide before A was born. Not since then though cos I made a promise that I would live for him. I keep every promise I make to myself or anyone else. Then you know what, I realise  that I have to live because I want to and to reflect on what this PostSecret says…because life is good.

I don’t think suicide is an act of cowardice. An attempt or more might be a cry to be noticed, cry for attention. The actual act may be the result of many things. There are many a times when I wish I had died. Times when I just want to give up and disappear. Don’t know what is ahead , or whether there is an after-life, judgement day, re-birth (that would be an entirely new entry may be) . The thought of just leaving all these troubles behind is pretty inviting;  when living day in day out with no end  to misery year after year.

In continuation of my previous post today….I hope I can truly relate to the picture and say “Life is good and I am glad to be alive with those who love me around me!”  The statement might sound selfish…but hey, that is just what I want. I wish Life is good! I never wanted it more than now!

Hope!

As I have written, I do check my horoscope now and then…this was for today

“As you seek solutions to tough questions, remember that hope will take you further than fear. There are always potential pitfalls to any plan, but a can-do attitude today has the power to overcome negativity. Ultimately, it is rather simple now: if you believe something is possible, then it is.”

As I have said earlier, there are days I believe in the authenticity of astrology and there are those I don’t. Though the above did not seem much like a prediction. It feels more like advice – very apt one right now. I was (am) crushed by a fear of losing something that I hold very close to heart right now. I so don’t want to lose what I have got. So, I am going to follow this; for a change, believe/ hope that I can. There might be some unknown reason keeping this particular aspect away from my life right now, I hope it is not for too long (Again – patience has never really been a virtue of mine!) . I do wonder what is wrong; wish I knew. Just that I miss one a lot and want it to be back to normal real soon.

I believe things will be fine. Hoping this really helps; because I am going mad and feel myself going into depression thinking of all this. So, will definitely get out of this slump; be happy!