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Anybody there! ?!

Looks like I am posting once a month now! Or at least it has been close to a month since my last post!

What have I been up to? Going through some really bad moments – learnt that I mistrusted a person who I thought to be a great friend (15 years of friendship down the drain – making me wonder who my real friends are now! ), distance between me & another friend has grown due to a stupid misunderstanding because of my mood swing, visit by a trio of old people I never wanted to meet as a result of a “friend’s” actions. The last on the list was a bit too much for me & A.

I know that all this sounds really cryptic but over the last month I have learnt that I have been way too open only to be hurt by people I trusted. It is not easy for me to be this closed… am glad I have a few I still trust & open up to. Don’t know how long they will be there (showing how cynical I am getting I suppose) Result of a few who say they would call back & have not, I have pinged and in fact even asked them to call when free cos I wanted to talk – still waiting! I know people are busy, have lives etc…, but I also know that no one is that busy that they cannot even return a call or message for days on end. I get the message. Learning that being a hi-how do you do?-bye friend is all many are! I sometimes wish I could be like that!!! I am not! I have always valued friendship and would do anything for a good friend. I don’t want to become the cynic that I am turning into.

I don’t know how many readers I have left! πŸ™‚ I have been really bad at commenting on the blogs I visit (avoiding it because of the way I am right now) I hardly even ping anyone online nor tweet – so much so I doubt if I qualify to be part of the tweeples out there or a blogger or whatever!!

Now I only wish that I don’t lose the few I have in my life right now or that I have the strength to face the time when they won’t be around. Life is weird – especially mine – I always end up getting the one thing I never ever wanted – loneliness!

There are three things in life that shouldn’t be broken… hearts, promises & friendships πŸ™‚

Found that in the status shuffle on Facebook. Guess what? All 3 have been broken…one too many times!!!

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19 thoughts on “Anybody there! ?!

  1. I’m still here! I’m still here! Although, I must admit I haven’t been by very often in the last few months because of school. But don’t take that personally as it has been that way for all my blog buddies. I just haven’t been able to visit them as much as I’d like. I’m not sure I know what pinging is all about though.

    I finally did get to see Julie & Julie and I really liked it! πŸ™‚ Meryl Streep was great.

    1. Thanks Teeni! A huge hug from me πŸ™‚ By pinging I meant contacting by chat or email…
      I watched another movie of Meryl Streep just yesterday – Its Complicated. That one is good too; in case you have not watched it πŸ™‚

  2. Not sounding preachy but there is a saying…”never give priority to a person from whom you are just an option”…In my opinion, hearts, promises & friendships have little chance of being broken if you adhere to this πŸ™‚

    1. Hey SidZ, I guess I was wrong in giving priority to these people; rather I guess I did not realise that I was just an option to them!! 😦 Lesson learnt!

  3. Still here too, Apar! I am so sorry that you are having tough times. There will be better days, I promise! Sending you big ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))).

  4. I alwAys stop by to chk for updates on your blog. Sorry to hear about some of the issues u hv been having. I hope u find the strength to deal with this and still find time to blog more frequently. πŸ™‚

    1. Thanks Anonymouse! Don’t think time is the only deterrent for my not blogging often! Will try …at least to keep friends around! πŸ™‚

  5. apu i am still here…. yes, u do need new friends in addition to the ones who will remain loyal. new faces, new hearts, new beginnings….

    1. Thanks Bhu! Touchwood despite all the fights we have, we manage to hang on πŸ˜€ Don’t think much about the new faces, new hearts though!!! You know that πŸ˜‰

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