True stories…

It has been one long, lonely Sunday. I ended up watching a movie that I like – Something the Lord Made. It is based on a true story. Then the television was free…I could flip through channels and ended up at Sony Pix watching 13 Going on 30 – another movie I have enjoyed from time to time.

I am not a person who is moved to tears by an emotional movie/scene or whatever. I have been known to laugh at good jokes in a movie. I realise that I prefer movies based on true stories. They do not let us go on fantasy trips. They do not make you think life is all rosy & nice. They show reality. A positive true story does make you wonder if that can happen to you, make you feel something is possible etc..,ย Of course I would watch those chick flicks, comedies, fantasy films etc.., but I will try not to get carried away!!

Oops that is what I am doing now… Back to Something the Lord Made. It is about a black person who struggled despite his talent & intelligence. It took him ages to get recognition. He lived through racial discrimination, poverty and big dreams. Quite inspirational.

Alright, now I don’t know the point of this post! Just penned down some thoughts. The loneliness, the void that I looking at in life, a stupid romantic movie & a true story is what drove me to do this! Wonder where life is going – not a clue with no strength to go on! Disappointment, desperation rule.


Summer, Cyclone, Traffic & more…

A month after my morbid post, I thought I would revive this blog – well, a wee bit at least. I guess this is a way to tell those who care out there that I am still alive, still existing! ๐Ÿ˜€

What have I been up to? Nothing much and definitely nothing great! I am enjoying the work I do. I never ever thought I would be called to that interview, least of all did I think I would get selected! It has been close to 3 months now in this job. I still have no idea what I am up to in life. I still am going with the flow – carpe diem, Nike in life… whatever ย one would like to call it! So far the job is good – has its pros & cons. Learning to live with the cons and appreciating the pros. I realise that I love working with kids, especially those who are enthusiastic & well behaved/ communicative. The smaller ones are really cute! This is part of my job profile ย – to organise workshops for children – the part I love most! ๐Ÿ˜€ . I heaved a sigh of relief when the summer camp was over with! It was well appreciated ๐Ÿ™‚ (Alright am grinning with all my ugly teeth showing!!!)

Yesterday was a day I would not forget so easily. Laila, the cyclone hit Madras! Closed early at work, but had an amazing, unforgettable evening!!! ย I had left my bike at work thinking I would pick it up today…. my luck followed! I can’t be too happy!! ๐Ÿ™‚ I reach work only to realise I had not taken my bike keys! I had not packed lunch, there was none at the cafe! Now I guess this kind of proves that when I have a good day, it must be followed by one that is horrid! Is this proof enough to say that the one up there does not like me to be happy?! Was struck in traffic today on the way back home, had an interesting conversation with the cab driver ( could be a post by itself!!! ) about traffic, rules & people in Chennai!! One costly ride home and one pending back to work tomorrow!

I absolutely have no idea what is in store for me in life?! It is getting hard to live life one day at a time! A couple of them actually commented to me saying they can see my smile/grin but supposedly see sadness in my eyes! I don’t know if that is even remotely true…but these were total strangers who have no idea of what my life is about! Here I was thinking, hey I am smiling now, laughing even!!! Am I fooling myself?! I must stop wondering!! More than anything else, I must stop expecting anything at all from anyone!!