Playing Temple Run/ Subway Surfers, I keep thinking that life seems to be just this!! Keep running. Get hit by hurdle after hurdle. Use save mes to rise up & keep running. All the while only be bothered to collect coins/ power-ups.
The last few months has made me feel even more so. All emphasis being given to only money. Running life alone. Guess when you can’t afford to use save mes; game is over. Wondering now if I have any save mes left, whether I want to even restart.
I am wondering what is the ultimate prize after all this running. Is there one?! That illusive thing.
When will one be tired of running? When will it be enough?



This morning I was playing catch with A. He is not that good at catching smaller objects…. This set my mind thinking (nostalgia struck! flashback!!!)

Having entered middle school, entering a team seemed a big thing. I tried out for kho-kho and throwball. Both were held the same evening. I must say here that I just vaguely knew what the games were. Assumption there would be some sort of training. What I was remembering distinctly was the try out for the throwball team. All I had to do was throw the ball from the boundary and it had to cross the net. We were supposed to get 3 tries. We were given only one!! None of the 6th standard (/grade) kids were chosen for that year. I remember how the captain of the team (an 8th standard gal) said ” You gals cannot throw the ball across the net, and you dream of making it to the team” and she sniggered. Β It struck me hard.

I asked my neighbour uncle to help me. He and other older neighbours played volleyball every sunday morning in an over-sized court. He helped out. By a little while, I could really throw the ball from the boundary of the oversized court Β – right across the net. Obviously I tried the next year to make it into the team. Did get selected. Guess what? I had to actually control the power in my serve such that I don’t serve the ball that landed outside!!! I made it as captain of the team when I passed out of school.

Why all this story? I was wondering where that girl has gone? That girl who got hurt and fought back, trained for what she wanted and got it. Did well in what she got (fairly well πŸ˜‰ We lost some matches in the inter-school competition!! :D)

Is this what my friends who know me from ages back refer to when they say “the Apar I knew”. Has she disappeared? Has age mellowed her down? Has she become a plain old quitter?! There are days when I think “nah!! I am still here, I am still fighting and doing the best I can.” and there are those when I would tell myself ” Those days are long gone. This is what it is. Nothing can change it!”

I wonder if this is a case of cascading thoughts. Linking absolutely independent events and worrying unnecessarily. May be it is trying to figure out what the heck I am doing or where I am going in life!! Whatever it is…decided to key it in.


Vimal tagged for this meme here. He has written he wanted more visits to that page…may be that is why this late tagging happened πŸ™‚

I like tags. I guess I learn more about myself when I do them. This one : I learnt that I am pretty much open to most things in life; but certain stuff – I do have some boundaries which I think are justifiable.

Please thoughtfully consider the following, and choose one item for each of the categories below.(Be sure to describe your reasons for choosing)
One religious work from a non-familiar tradition you’ll read:
Am not a very religious person. Off late I have flashes of atheism too. Though I firmly believe in knowledge for knowledge’s sake. Besides I pretty much read anything printed!! (Stay totally away from self-help books – read a few though) So, what would I read from a non- familiar tradition? I should say that even Hinduism to a large extent is non-familiar. Though am game for any other work on whatever tradition πŸ˜€

One music video–that you like–from your β€œleast likely to listen to’ genre:
Again I am open to any form of music and I don’t watch that many music videos. I am more of a listen to music kind of person. πŸ™‚ “Least likey to listen to” genre is metal for me though.

A book from a genre you almost never read, that you have read, or you will read (promise!):
Self help books!! eeeks!! no way! Erotic stuff have never read! I would rather do nothing!!! NO!! I will not read these! πŸ˜€ so none listed!! πŸ˜‰ No expansion?! no problem πŸ˜‰

Somewhere you’d never thought to go on holiday/vacation, and why it might be fun to go there?
Timbuctoo or Mongolia….Don’t know why it will be fun. Just that I always think of some place remote. Run away from the maddening crowd…Any such place would be good πŸ˜‰ May be it is just now!

A specific food you’ve never tried, but will because of this meme, honest!
OMG! Food….Well, I guess I will try anything lacto-vegetarian.


A sport or game you really hate, or haven’t tried yet, but are willing to give one more go:

I don’t hate any sport/game. Hate is a strong word!! Haven’t tried? Well, that would probably fill pages and pages. This is an expansionist meme, right? So am game for any sport/ game πŸ˜‰

A style of dance you probably won’t try (we won’t make you promise on this one):
Again boring but truthful answer…willing to try any dance as long as it is notΒ  characterised under perversion.

A career/ job you don’t feel you’re suited for, and why:
Marketing! I cannot lie to save my soul. I cannot sensationalise. I can almost never convince some one unless I myself strongly believe in that (which I know will not be the case in marketing jobs!)

An item that’s β€œthinking out of the box’ for this meme that hadn’t been included:
I have exhausted my thinking ability on responding to the previous questions. Cannot think of an answer to this one!

IfΒ  there’s one thing in life you wanted to do, and will do because of this meme, what will it be?
Again, I don’t think I would actually do anything because of a meme. There are a lot of things in life I want to do though! πŸ™‚

Now for the tougher part than doing the meme itself. I am going to take the easy way out – leave it to who ever wants to take this up. One condition : Let me know so I can come check your answers πŸ˜€

Tags – 1 down 3 more to go! πŸ™‚

D is for “Dare”, D is for “Drum”, D is for “Dot”, D is for “Duh”, D is for…

Took this one upon myself as you will understand from the rules. I have been assigned the letter…..

DbyΒ  (well as an indicator to the image I chose to display the letter πŸ˜‰ …here is to you…Β  πŸ™‚ ) the BeadDen here.

Here are the rules:

You leave a comment on this post, and I’ll assign you a letter. You write about ten things you love that begin with your assigned letter, and post it at your place. When people comment on your list, you give them a letter, and the chain continues on and on.

You can leave a comment and not be assigned a letter if you want.Β  Just let me know if you want a letter to keep this going.

I find this interesting. The letter assigned is kind of something that keeps popping into my mind in the words that I think of. Do I love them? Not really! πŸ™‚ My last post also is a word that begins with “D” ….

Just listen to the “Piece Audio” for the letter D and how most words associated are well…not really good ones πŸ™‚ So, here I list those words that come to my mind…not necessarily those I love. Sorry for deviating from the rules 😦 I will try listing only positive ones…

Date : Something I have not been on for a long time now. πŸ™‚ Don’t intend to either πŸ˜‰ but doesn’t every one think about the word “date” every day?

Divorce: For obvious reasons, this D word pops into my mind ever so often! apart from the word that is the title of my last post which I don’t intend to list here πŸ™‚

Deuterium: This word does not come to my mind as often (please…don’t think I am that much of a nerd! ) but it did come when I was trying to think of words to list here. After all chemistry was the subject I majored in. Confession : there were many other geeky/nerdy words that did pop in my brain (absolutely not intentional I am sure! πŸ™‚ )

Dream: Everybody does have a dream, isn’t it? I am yet to figure out mine; I suppose it is pretty positive a word to think of when dealing with “D” πŸ™‚

Dinosaur: My son A came and asked me what I was doing. Told him I was thinking of words starting with “D”. He asked me to add this one πŸ™‚ So, dinosaur is my fifth word!

Five down…five to go!!!

Daughter: Talking about A, I must say that I always wanted a daughter. I so wished A was a girl when I was pregnant!! *sigh*…. Well, am lucky I have A in my life πŸ™‚

Development : Another positive word that came up was “development”. I suppose it is positive, at least I think so. Don’t quite know what is there to be developed in my life now…butΒ  hope there is something and it is positive πŸ˜‰

Dimension: I like fractals at least looking at those images πŸ˜‰ Hence this term did come up when I thought of “D” words… I am definitely figuring out the dimensions of the problems I am facing in life now πŸ™‚

Desolate/Depression : I know! I said I will try!! These words haunt me all the time; so could not let these pass when listing words that begin with D!

December : We are in the month that begins with the letter “D” helping me complete this meme πŸ™‚ Tis the holiday season for most people. Wishing everyone “Happy holidays”. Hope the next year brings all joy and cheer to each & everyone’s life πŸ˜€

Thanks to Google image search for all the images. Copyrights would be as per what the original images hold!

Thank you BeadDen for giving me this letter. I really liked doing this one. If the readers think of more cheerful words to replace the depressing ones above, please do let me know. I am sure there will be many πŸ™‚ though the above are those that came to my mind. I am aΒ  Dingbat, Ding-a-ling – could not help that one either πŸ˜‰ My Dosts (hindi for friend – pluralised using the “s” by me πŸ˜€ ) would certainly vouch for those attributes of mine πŸ˜‰

Quirks?!? Me?

Dinesh of 18,000 RPM tagged me.

Edit: Reema of My Random Thoughts has also tagged me for the same πŸ™‚

The tag is to list 6 quirks of mine. First off, apologies for the delay…reason?! I had to think a lot (been quite a bit out of touch with the concept of thinking too πŸ˜‰ ) and I came to the conclusion that I am as normal as anyone can get πŸ˜€ but with extreme difficulty; I ended up with a list….here goes….

#1 As Nikhil said, me thinking of what my quirks are for so long itself is quirky ( I suppose!)

#2 I am way too honest and straightforward that I refuse to cook up my resume much to some people’s chagrin. Is that my quirk or theirs?!

#3 I am patient enough to do 1000 or more pieces jigsaws, separate a mixture of toor and chenna dal (a kg each) but am way too impatient when it comes to knowing what is up in my life!

#4 When I am in charge of the household (the chores rather πŸ˜‰ ), I hate having a sink full of dirty dishes to wake up to…so always washed them up before going to bed. Talking of chores, I love washing clothes (the smell of freshly done laundry…love it) but hate folding them…quirkiness; I love pressing clothes.Β  I would rather sweep & mop the old fashioned way than plug in the vacuum cleaner.

#5 I play more with my son’s GeoTrax and Lego sets than he probably does πŸ˜€

#6 A has more quirks than I do (May be I should list his instead of mine like I put up his pics instead of mine for Vimal’s tag πŸ˜€ )

Now to tag 6 other people as required. I tag those whom I had the opportunity to meet with A last saturday ( a few absentees from the planned meet …but then we are not talking about those especially those who had really lame reasons!! )


Did not tag Aparna as I already have tagged her and to remind her, she is yet to do it πŸ˜‰

A & I had a wonderful time that day. Thanks a lot fellow bloggers πŸ˜€ We definitely should do that more often.

A face to a letter! ;)

Vimal has tagged me in this photo tag. It is to publish a candid and not posed photograph which was taken about 10 years ago. Vimal says “childhood snaps (a snap atleast 10 years old)” All I can do is smile at that.

Honestly, I was going to pass doing this one. One major reason, I don’t quite have pics from 10 years back. Even if I do, the only ones that were not really posed for would be those taken during dance performances. Actually, I don’t have that many pics of mine ….hazard of being the second kid (parents did not have time to take pics!! or so they say πŸ˜‰ ), growing up I did not like my pic taken cos I felt concious of my braces, eventually people did not take photos of me. πŸ˜€

So, after the long preamble…what am I going to do with this particular tag?! Thought I would put a face to the letter…so here goes…some candid childhood (hehehe) shots of A (sorry! I did not satisfy the 10 year old condition, he is not even 4 πŸ˜€ …well few years down the lane, these will be 10 years old πŸ˜‰ )

The pics range from his scan, a couple of hours after his birth to those taken about a few months back.

Now for the next set of scapegoats!! (Muahahaha … )

Laksh well, both A-kay & Laksh are kinda my constants…:)
Indian home maker
(have not tagged her yet…)
Scorpria (have not tagged her also so far…)
Rajitha (to get her out of her blogging slump πŸ˜‰ )

Picture says all? Not really! ;)

Sulz has tagged me here. I like this tag. I don’t like this tag. Why? Cos it has made me think about the answers. Why not? Cos I still don’t think I have the right answers?! Especially to some questions… πŸ™‚

Have done my best. πŸ˜€


a) Answer the questions below, do a Google Image search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, and do it with minimal words of explanation.

b) Tag 5 other people to do the same once you’ve finished answering every question.

1. The age you will be on your next birthday


2. A place you would like to travel to…

Just one? Puhleaze!

Edit: Muse, the one below was the other pic… πŸ™‚

3. Your favourite place

4. Your favourite food

5. Your favourite pet

6. Your favourite colour combination

Makes sense?
Makes sense?

7. Your favourite piece of clothing

Yoga pants
Yoga pants

8. Your favourite TV show


9. First name of your significant other

wish I knew πŸ˜‰

10. The town in which you live

11. Your first job

12. Your dream job

got to get a job first!! πŸ™‚

13. A bad habit you have


14. Your worst fear

15. What would you like to do before you die?

not just exist!!

Now the tagging of 5 people. Adhere to rules?!

Well…here goes… Aparna, Nikhil, Kris, Imp’s mom, Mitr – you are all it πŸ™‚

Whoa! Another tag!!

Ramya has tagged me here

Here are the rules for “7 Facts about me”—

(a) List these rules on your blog.

(b) Share 7 facts about yourself on your blog.

(c) Tag 7 people at the end of your post by leaving their names as well as links to their blogs.

a) Done πŸ˜‰

b) 7 facts about me!!! OMG! I don’t know! Lemme try

1. I am what people can say is a perfect Libra. Take ages to decide; but once done, I stick to it.
2. I am friendly. Once I am some one’s friend, I hate losing that friendship for any reason, so I will go the extra mile to make up if there is a tiff πŸ™‚
3. I believe in love and in waiting for the person who loves you (of course and you love;) ).
4. I dread to think of a life all alone (have written quite a few entries on this one!)
5. I am a person with a temper, but I never carry grudges. Flare up and forget. I know I should mellow down, have done that a bit but a long way to go I suppose.
6. I will speak out and take a stand by anything that is right.
7.Β  Phew!! Finally…I am glad I am done and don’t need to think further? πŸ˜‰

c) Whoever thinks they wanna do this tag is welcome to pick it up. I will tell you that it took a lot out of me to get these 7 (ok…6 last one I kinda cheated! ) points; and to think it is about me. Well, been ages since I had to do things like SWOT analysis and stuff. I can probably say that there are very few people who really know me and can list these “facts” about me better. My mom, B, Laksh, Y, A, Nana, K are a few that come to my mind πŸ™‚

Let’s play tag!

have been tagged by Nikhil & Kris in this questionnaire mostly about love. Those who know me, already know the answers; those who don’t might just find it a wee bit boring I suppose. Anyhoos, here goes!

The rules of the game

RULE #1 : People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

RULE #2 :Β  Tag 6 people to do this quiz and they cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
Well, been there, rather am still there in a way! I was upset, angry, hurt. Tried to reason out that things should not be this awry. Went through the DABDA. Where am I now? I just want it all over with P; the legalities so my son & I can live our lives like he is living his or better?!

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
Dream come true? hmm… will take a rain check on this.

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
No one really. Though there were times when I so wanted to kick P. That too passes quickly.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
That would shut people up who bug me saying I should have a job so I don’t need to depend on P’s money, what id he does not send money for A etc.., πŸ™‚

5. Will you u fall in love with your best friend?
Simple Yes.

6. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
So being loved by someone.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
As long as it takes, though I would bug the person to respond quickly πŸ˜‰

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Don’t know really. I would probably just keep quiet.

9. If you like to act with someone, who will it be? your gf/bf or an actress/actor?
No thanks! No acting for me.

10. What takes you down the fastest?

11.How would you see yourself in ten years time?
Hate this question. Don’t know really, but have written about it here. It was another tag.

12. What’s your fear?
To end up alone in life!

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
One always ends up making me smile with all his posts who sounds to be a hopeless romantic to his Jodha πŸ™‚ (lucky her;) ), hoping he kicks his cigarette butt out of his life instead of SRK’s like he mentions :). The other I am getting to know; is a rockstar (needs to take singing lessons though πŸ˜‰ ), a friend whose dreams I hope come true πŸ˜€

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
how about married to a person who loves me and reasonably well off?

15.What’s the first thing you do when you wake up?
Hope I get to hear from someone at least that day! and that there are no more mishaps to deal with.

16.Would you give all in a relationship?
More than all that I can give.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
The one who loves me?! Absolutely no idea! The chances of this happening are just as slim as lightning striking at the same place twice?!

18. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
I would rave and rant about it. Wonder if it were my fault. Get convinced that I was the one who did something wrong…so obviously, the someone is always me in the end. I would not forget probably but would forgive. Can’t hold something against me all the time right?

19. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
Redundant question. Replace with original? ( again rain check on the question though the person I intend to ask the question already knows it πŸ™‚ )

20. List 6 people to tag
Hope they take it up. Would love to know their answers (esp the answer to q.13 πŸ™‚ ). Here goes my list:
1. Laksh
2. A-kay
3. Raaga
4. Spillay
5. MusEditions
6. Rajitha

And anyone else who would like to take it up. πŸ™‚